Life is strange…It’s filled with failed expectations, compromises, and regrets. But I am determined to never have those aspects define me.
As I get older, I am finding that the more I learn, the less I understand. I spend hours reading books and in classrooms learning. Majority of my last four years were spent cramming knowledge. I am told that if I follow certain steps, I am bound to achieve success. For some great reason, I have always struggled with that concept. I never agreed with the idea that there is only one way of achieving success.
Yesterday I panicked because I didn’t have a set plan for my future. I have always been great at a few things but I was unsure what I wanted my main focus to be. I am graduating in August and I have no set plan. Career services tell me that I should be finalizing a plan at this stage. I should be preparing for graduate program or for my career. Yesterday I felt like such a failure for having neither confirmed.
Today I have decided to make a goal. This year will be the year of growth. I may not find my dream job, I may not find my ideal graduate program, but at the end of the day I will become a better person. I will make my own pace.
I just listened to Long Run by Fly Union and I was encouraged to keep moving forward. I want to find a place where I can free my mind.
I need to embrace change and uncertainty. I want to learn from my mistakes. I don’t need anyone to fight my battles, I truly need my scars
Growth is beautiful!